Positive Self Talk, a New Routine
Posted: Wed Mar 27, 2013 5:21 pm
I had a decent start to the day today, although I did have a few spontaneous anxiety attacks through the night which disrupted my sleep. I was a little tired but proud of myself for negating my negative thinking. I told myself that thoughts cannot hurt me, I was fine, getting sleep will help me feel better and I distracted myself by counting my blessings. It was hard but effective.
My morning activities well but made up for my rough night. I attended a large social gathering for a good cause and afterward went to lunch with friends. I was nervous, but overall it was a positive experience, motivating and fun. When I got home, though, I fell into a depression. I was alone and started beating myself up for having anxiety. I laid on the couch to feel better, then realized, this IS A ROUTINE! I make myself feel bad so I can wallow in self pity to "feel better". Staying depressed almost feels warm and cozy to me!
I'm beginning to identify my bad habit. Negative thinking is easy, it's falsely comforting to feel sorry for myself, it's an excuse to turn myself off. I started to think about the good things that happened today. I have no good reason to feel depressed. I'm a little tired, but that's all. I got off the couch. I read part of a good book. I decided to write a post. Today, I am changing my routine.
My morning activities well but made up for my rough night. I attended a large social gathering for a good cause and afterward went to lunch with friends. I was nervous, but overall it was a positive experience, motivating and fun. When I got home, though, I fell into a depression. I was alone and started beating myself up for having anxiety. I laid on the couch to feel better, then realized, this IS A ROUTINE! I make myself feel bad so I can wallow in self pity to "feel better". Staying depressed almost feels warm and cozy to me!
I'm beginning to identify my bad habit. Negative thinking is easy, it's falsely comforting to feel sorry for myself, it's an excuse to turn myself off. I started to think about the good things that happened today. I have no good reason to feel depressed. I'm a little tired, but that's all. I got off the couch. I read part of a good book. I decided to write a post. Today, I am changing my routine.