When I first got the tapes and started to listen to them I too felt like you with high anxiety. It is hard to hear. I believe Lucinda addresses that too in her tapes & this is very normal. Some of the tapes seam to produce more anxiety than others. That is why its nice to replay them. I'm not sure where in the program I started to be excited to hear the next session. But it does happen. Just plug it in and enter the door to freedom!
I'm sure it will be hard finding time with such a busy life. It may take you longer to go through the program but you will still learn no matter what the pace is. Look at it as when you learn these skills and apply them to your life how your kids and husband will benefit learning these life skills as well. I wish someone told me this stuff years ago!!! LOL....
You are so blessed to have a supportive family too! Be brave and plug it in!!!
We are all here too, it is such a nice feeling to know your not alone!