Stress Center Peer Support

I have more anxiety when life is normal and there is no chaos, I really get into the what if thinking and waiting for the ball to drop and ruin my life. I feel more in control and less anxiety when I am in times of turmoil and there is an actual problem. I think I subconciously look for or cause problems in my relationships with others just to have a real problem to worry about. I have known for awhile I have a problem with this so over the years I have weeded out most everyone in my life because I wanted to stop hurting peoples feelings. I am now soooo lonley and stay home 90% of the time and feel so stupid because I have done all of this to myself, I want friends and people in my life,but I have kept myself away from people so long I don't know how to interact anymore and feel so helpless around others.

I understand what you mean.

For most of life I have been through a lot, for the first part of my life it was out of my control and then for a few years I think that I purposefully created "chaos." Now I am finally at a point where I am stable, and yet it is hard for me to feel that everything is okay and that there is nothing to worry about.

I don't think there is any quick fix to this problem- it's just something you have to be aware of and work on with positive thinking and slowly challenging yourself to come out of your comfort zone. Make small steps forward to living the life you want to live.

thax its nice to know I'm not the only one doing this to myself