Posted: Fri Jun 13, 2008 5:09 am
I'm having some difficulty with self talk today. I'm wondering if anyone can relate? I am finsished the program but seem to be having alot of growth spurts lately or maybe its's my negative self talk.
I have been noticing that i have started to have increased anxiety driving with scary what if thoughts. I ordered carolyn's driving with comfort tape and have listened to it several times since I got it last week. I practice taking slow and steady breathing when I feel I have what is a challenge driving. I am especially nervous that i might hit someone walking or biking. I live in area where there are what seems like narroww roads and no sidewalks, even on the main roadways.
Well this am while driving home from my son's Md appt. on a narrowish street. I noticed on my right an older man walking out off the side walk to front driver's side to get into the car. On my left was an older woamn trying to cross street a little further down. I slow my van down and try to move out a little beacuse of the older man but trying to be aawre of thew older woman trying to cross street. My thought I will let this older woman, dressed in running clothers, cross street so I slow down check rear view mirror to see how close car is behind me, look back at street and woman is nearly fully across street. I had my front on brake but was not completely stopped and I was like Oh my God i could have hit her.
This has been my thought most of the am. Then I have begun to 2nd gues myself, did i wave her out to cross and I don't remmeber, what kind of driver am I, I could have killed her. What if I end up in jail. What about my kids etc. etc
I try to counter with + I am good capable driver. I have quick reflexes. I was able to stop car quickly. Everything is ok. Then my negative self comes back with you wren't paying attention, you shouldn't be driving. You always make mistakes. Then I think well if I wasnt' driving then this wouldn't happen.
I cannot give up driving, I refuse to become home bound. I have been driving over 25 years and I have never been in any seroius accidents. One time hit parked car skidded on ice.
I want to be my own safe person and place but I need a little help. I'm even beating myself up over asking for help. I should be able to handle this I'm finshed the program
If anyone has anthing to offer I truely would appreciae it. Thank you. Take care and God Bless.
I have been noticing that i have started to have increased anxiety driving with scary what if thoughts. I ordered carolyn's driving with comfort tape and have listened to it several times since I got it last week. I practice taking slow and steady breathing when I feel I have what is a challenge driving. I am especially nervous that i might hit someone walking or biking. I live in area where there are what seems like narroww roads and no sidewalks, even on the main roadways.
Well this am while driving home from my son's Md appt. on a narrowish street. I noticed on my right an older man walking out off the side walk to front driver's side to get into the car. On my left was an older woamn trying to cross street a little further down. I slow my van down and try to move out a little beacuse of the older man but trying to be aawre of thew older woman trying to cross street. My thought I will let this older woman, dressed in running clothers, cross street so I slow down check rear view mirror to see how close car is behind me, look back at street and woman is nearly fully across street. I had my front on brake but was not completely stopped and I was like Oh my God i could have hit her.
This has been my thought most of the am. Then I have begun to 2nd gues myself, did i wave her out to cross and I don't remmeber, what kind of driver am I, I could have killed her. What if I end up in jail. What about my kids etc. etc
I try to counter with + I am good capable driver. I have quick reflexes. I was able to stop car quickly. Everything is ok. Then my negative self comes back with you wren't paying attention, you shouldn't be driving. You always make mistakes. Then I think well if I wasnt' driving then this wouldn't happen.
I cannot give up driving, I refuse to become home bound. I have been driving over 25 years and I have never been in any seroius accidents. One time hit parked car skidded on ice.
I want to be my own safe person and place but I need a little help. I'm even beating myself up over asking for help. I should be able to handle this I'm finshed the program
If anyone has anthing to offer I truely would appreciae it. Thank you. Take care and God Bless.
