Drug dependency
I've been struggling with drugs/alcohol for about 11 years. I've been in and out of rehabs and jails. I've gone to AA, gotten sponsors, and tried to work the program the way I'm told. I've been sober for periods of time, but anxiety always takes over and I'll use just to run away from my it. With or without anxiety I'm an addict and that is something I'm trying to deal with. Will any of this ever be any easier? Can anyone relate?
-
Guest
Hi cap.
You should contact the company, they can give you some really good advice on what to do. My telling you to stay positive and relax is not going to help you a lot, but it will help some. You need some heavy duty help for the drugs/alcohol that the company will be able to help you with.
Don't give up. And take care, cap.
DeeDee.
You should contact the company, they can give you some really good advice on what to do. My telling you to stay positive and relax is not going to help you a lot, but it will help some. You need some heavy duty help for the drugs/alcohol that the company will be able to help you with.
Don't give up. And take care, cap.
DeeDee.
-
Guest
cap,
i am a recovering alcoholic. i have been sober 5 1/2 years. sometimes i think that anxiety is what made me an alcoholic. but that doesn't matter i am one now and that won't change ever. not if the anxiety disappears forever. what you need to do is go and talk to a therapist and a psychiatrist. i know what i'm going to tell you goes against alot of what A.A. says. but it also states in A.A. that A.A. isn't a cure all. i have suffered from anxiety and panic since 1998. i used alcohol and some drugs to calm this anxiety in the past. but after awhile, it stops working and makes the problem 100000x's worse. go seek the doctors and listen to them. i am currently taking klonopin. i fought this tooth and nail cuz of my alcoholism, but the point came where i could not function or leave my house cuz of anxiety. so i took the medicine. i did it reluctantly. and it has helped alot. i do not abuse them at all. i know others in the program that use klonopin also. i would NOT suggest ever using xanax or ativan. if you need help medication wise, try something like lexapro/celexa etc. and if it has t be a benzo medication make sure it's klonopin and not a short acting one. it is to be doesed twice a day a .5mg to reach a steady state and give you 24 hour coverage from panic attacks. it either completley halts them for decreases the severity of them greatly. since june i had one panic attack and that was when i drove on the highway for the first time in a year AND IT ONLY LAST 40 SECONDS!!! you need to get back to A.A. you need a sponsor, you need to goto a meeting every day for 90 days. every single day. you need to get tons of phone numbers and talk to alcoholics everyday on the phone, including your sponsor. you need to surrender to your higher power, you will and life. for it is obvious you have taken your will power back when u decided to use each time. everytime u want to use, pick up the phone or go directly to a meeting. and then pray. pray pray pray. then pray some more. if you see a therpaist. a psychiatrist and work the 12 steps. i mean work them! do them all every step of the way. you world will change!
i have been there, exacly where you are! using, the guilt the next day, the panic the next day, then using again to get rid of the panic and guilt, the consequences of using. hitting bottoms. going to jail. i've been in every single situation.
God Bless you. you can't do this yourself. God has to manage your life from now on. it has to be that way. alcoholism is a fatal disease. panic attacks are NOT!
if it comes to the point that you need to use klonopin, have your dr. prescribe only 14 a week and go and get a refill every week. this will make sure u don't abuse them.
if you ever take more than prescribed. then it's over. you will have to go with an SSRI med. and use lucinda's program only.
this is sound advice from the heart and i hope you read every word and listen and know that klonopin can help you out, but you can easily abuse them. pray about it. hopefully an SSRI will help you. but if it comes to it. follow my advice to a "T"
God Bless
Jayson.
i am a recovering alcoholic. i have been sober 5 1/2 years. sometimes i think that anxiety is what made me an alcoholic. but that doesn't matter i am one now and that won't change ever. not if the anxiety disappears forever. what you need to do is go and talk to a therapist and a psychiatrist. i know what i'm going to tell you goes against alot of what A.A. says. but it also states in A.A. that A.A. isn't a cure all. i have suffered from anxiety and panic since 1998. i used alcohol and some drugs to calm this anxiety in the past. but after awhile, it stops working and makes the problem 100000x's worse. go seek the doctors and listen to them. i am currently taking klonopin. i fought this tooth and nail cuz of my alcoholism, but the point came where i could not function or leave my house cuz of anxiety. so i took the medicine. i did it reluctantly. and it has helped alot. i do not abuse them at all. i know others in the program that use klonopin also. i would NOT suggest ever using xanax or ativan. if you need help medication wise, try something like lexapro/celexa etc. and if it has t be a benzo medication make sure it's klonopin and not a short acting one. it is to be doesed twice a day a .5mg to reach a steady state and give you 24 hour coverage from panic attacks. it either completley halts them for decreases the severity of them greatly. since june i had one panic attack and that was when i drove on the highway for the first time in a year AND IT ONLY LAST 40 SECONDS!!! you need to get back to A.A. you need a sponsor, you need to goto a meeting every day for 90 days. every single day. you need to get tons of phone numbers and talk to alcoholics everyday on the phone, including your sponsor. you need to surrender to your higher power, you will and life. for it is obvious you have taken your will power back when u decided to use each time. everytime u want to use, pick up the phone or go directly to a meeting. and then pray. pray pray pray. then pray some more. if you see a therpaist. a psychiatrist and work the 12 steps. i mean work them! do them all every step of the way. you world will change!
i have been there, exacly where you are! using, the guilt the next day, the panic the next day, then using again to get rid of the panic and guilt, the consequences of using. hitting bottoms. going to jail. i've been in every single situation.
God Bless you. you can't do this yourself. God has to manage your life from now on. it has to be that way. alcoholism is a fatal disease. panic attacks are NOT!
if it comes to the point that you need to use klonopin, have your dr. prescribe only 14 a week and go and get a refill every week. this will make sure u don't abuse them.
if you ever take more than prescribed. then it's over. you will have to go with an SSRI med. and use lucinda's program only.
this is sound advice from the heart and i hope you read every word and listen and know that klonopin can help you out, but you can easily abuse them. pray about it. hopefully an SSRI will help you. but if it comes to it. follow my advice to a "T"
God Bless
Jayson.
-
Guest
Thanx DeeDee & Jayson. I started attending AA yesterday, I hooked back up with my sponsor, and I plan on hitting 90 n 90. Hearing from someone who was where I am, 5 years ago is really going to help. I really haven't ran into a whole lot of people in AA who struggle with anxiety like I do.
There's no way I can get on klonopin, been there done that. I was taking them a few years ago and I totally abused them. A months worth would be gone in 5 days. Then I would be out looking for stuff off the street. I'm hoping I can get better with the the program program, AA meetings, my sponsor and therapist.I'm in week3/day5 and already feeling alot better. I'm very hopeful and willing to do anything to make this work. I guess you gotta be when you get to this point.
There's no way I can get on klonopin, been there done that. I was taking them a few years ago and I totally abused them. A months worth would be gone in 5 days. Then I would be out looking for stuff off the street. I'm hoping I can get better with the the program program, AA meetings, my sponsor and therapist.I'm in week3/day5 and already feeling alot better. I'm very hopeful and willing to do anything to make this work. I guess you gotta be when you get to this point.
-
Guest
cap,
i can relate to what you are goig through..i have been sober since 1985 after drinking for 15 years...before that i went to CHURCH SERVED GOD AND READ MY BIBLE AND PRAYED..then i ran from HIM instead of to HIM.some do it in different ways..i remember the few weeks before i left germany for my final 3 years of military service..i had been drinking and it was ok..they were my firends that i had met and they gave me a going away party..they did not have to go with me to the states. it was a way to send me off...i was at the airport and had checked in and say down and fell asleep..i woke up and they had moved the gate for departure. i was scared i had missed my flight..i got home and went to a bar and had a dr pepper and have been sober ever since..I THINK GOD FOR CLEANING ME UP...i would have not been able to do it myself...so i can see how you are with the anxiety and i had that as well as panic and all sorts of things...but it took the edge off until i woke up only to face it all over again...get the tools from the program to help yo with the anxiety and panic and thenyou can go on your journey..let the AA and others help you as well...beleive in yourself and learn to love yourself..then in time you will see results. you are already on your way..keep up the good work and kno that you are in our thoughts and prayers...if you even need to talk or vent ..feel free to mail me .. GOD BLESS...
don
I WOKE UP ONE DAY IS 2006...IT WAS GONE...I CAN DO THINGS I HAD NOT DONE IN YEARS...THANK YOU LORD..
i can relate to what you are goig through..i have been sober since 1985 after drinking for 15 years...before that i went to CHURCH SERVED GOD AND READ MY BIBLE AND PRAYED..then i ran from HIM instead of to HIM.some do it in different ways..i remember the few weeks before i left germany for my final 3 years of military service..i had been drinking and it was ok..they were my firends that i had met and they gave me a going away party..they did not have to go with me to the states. it was a way to send me off...i was at the airport and had checked in and say down and fell asleep..i woke up and they had moved the gate for departure. i was scared i had missed my flight..i got home and went to a bar and had a dr pepper and have been sober ever since..I THINK GOD FOR CLEANING ME UP...i would have not been able to do it myself...so i can see how you are with the anxiety and i had that as well as panic and all sorts of things...but it took the edge off until i woke up only to face it all over again...get the tools from the program to help yo with the anxiety and panic and thenyou can go on your journey..let the AA and others help you as well...beleive in yourself and learn to love yourself..then in time you will see results. you are already on your way..keep up the good work and kno that you are in our thoughts and prayers...if you even need to talk or vent ..feel free to mail me .. GOD BLESS...
don
I WOKE UP ONE DAY IS 2006...IT WAS GONE...I CAN DO THINGS I HAD NOT DONE IN YEARS...THANK YOU LORD..
-
Guest
I have anxiety, panic attacks and OCD. I used to drink, etc to help medicate. I've been sober for about 10 years. What really helped me was antidepressants. There are some that are really good for anxiety and they have much less potential for abuse than the anti-anxiety meds. I actually work in a Pharmacy and I have done a lot of studying on these meds for personal reasons. Effexor and Trazadone are good for anxiety for some people. One thing to remember about anti depressants is they are more difficult to get off of because they are psychotropic so you will have to taper off if you take them for a while. Talk to a good Pharmacist about your symptoms. They are a great resource because all they study is meds.
-
Guest
-
Guest
-
Carolyn Dickman
- Posts: 264
- Joined: Tue Jun 28, 2005 3:00 am