Posted: Thu Feb 28, 2008 4:19 pm
I’ve had one of the most struggling weeks this week that I’ve had in a very long time. I have started Week 3 and feel like I’m going downhill fast. I must say that I have been fortunate to where I do not have to take my medication for my anxiety to get through the day nor does it limit me from work, school, etc. Not that I really have a choice in the matter.
One of my major underlying problems is that I faint when I get shots or see blood. Never fails, ever since I was little to this day. I passed out getting my blood pressure done once as well. I think that what fuels my anxiety is the fact that I may ACTUALLY faint! Listening through these sessions I listen to them talk about having the fear of fainting and but you won’t but I feel like I come very close especially this week.
For the last six months I let myself go and decided to get my hair cut and colored. The whole day before my appointment I kept getting negative thoughts about “what if I pass out” and actually visualizing it happen and of coarse wondering “what will everyone think of me if I do?!” I listened to my relaxation tape, I listened to week 2 but nothing helped. I tried positive self talk but everytime I tried, its like MY MIND was WORKING AGAINST ME and would overpower me. I literally almost did not go into my appointment but did anyways, which is a good thing. However, it was a hair cut, and that has never bothered me before. WHY DO I FEEL THIS WAY? HOW DO I GET MY NEGATIVE THOUGHTS OUT OF MY HEAD? HOW DO I STOP MY ANTISIPITORY ANXIETY?
Then today, I decided to go tanning. They have a new sign in thing where you put your finger on a red light to scan your fingerprint. Believe it or not, I thought I was going to pass out. I get feeling the adrenaline pump through my body and I felt light-headed and wanted to get out of there. I felt all the symptoms that I normally do before I faint minus the blurred vision, fuzziness, etc. WHY IS THIS HAPPENING? Sitting there in the booth, althought I’ve tanned several times prior, for those 6 minutes was like hell to me.
I try to think positively, what HOW DO I DO THAT WHEN I HAVE FAINTED BEFORE AND I KNOW IT IS POSSIBLE TO HAPPEN AGAIN? WHATS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN PASSING OUT AT SHOTS THAN JUST PASSING OUT BECAUSE OF MY ANXIETY?
I’m losing my concentration and I am now getting worse than better. I want to have kids but if I cant handle a doctors office nor anything related to blood how is this possible? How can I overcome this thing?!
I need all the input I can get at this point, anyone with same experience etc. Also, I know there is a help line we can call. Can someone please give me that information?
One of my major underlying problems is that I faint when I get shots or see blood. Never fails, ever since I was little to this day. I passed out getting my blood pressure done once as well. I think that what fuels my anxiety is the fact that I may ACTUALLY faint! Listening through these sessions I listen to them talk about having the fear of fainting and but you won’t but I feel like I come very close especially this week.
For the last six months I let myself go and decided to get my hair cut and colored. The whole day before my appointment I kept getting negative thoughts about “what if I pass out” and actually visualizing it happen and of coarse wondering “what will everyone think of me if I do?!” I listened to my relaxation tape, I listened to week 2 but nothing helped. I tried positive self talk but everytime I tried, its like MY MIND was WORKING AGAINST ME and would overpower me. I literally almost did not go into my appointment but did anyways, which is a good thing. However, it was a hair cut, and that has never bothered me before. WHY DO I FEEL THIS WAY? HOW DO I GET MY NEGATIVE THOUGHTS OUT OF MY HEAD? HOW DO I STOP MY ANTISIPITORY ANXIETY?
Then today, I decided to go tanning. They have a new sign in thing where you put your finger on a red light to scan your fingerprint. Believe it or not, I thought I was going to pass out. I get feeling the adrenaline pump through my body and I felt light-headed and wanted to get out of there. I felt all the symptoms that I normally do before I faint minus the blurred vision, fuzziness, etc. WHY IS THIS HAPPENING? Sitting there in the booth, althought I’ve tanned several times prior, for those 6 minutes was like hell to me.
I try to think positively, what HOW DO I DO THAT WHEN I HAVE FAINTED BEFORE AND I KNOW IT IS POSSIBLE TO HAPPEN AGAIN? WHATS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN PASSING OUT AT SHOTS THAN JUST PASSING OUT BECAUSE OF MY ANXIETY?
I’m losing my concentration and I am now getting worse than better. I want to have kids but if I cant handle a doctors office nor anything related to blood how is this possible? How can I overcome this thing?!
I need all the input I can get at this point, anyone with same experience etc. Also, I know there is a help line we can call. Can someone please give me that information?