Stress Center Peer Support

Hi
I'm having difficulties getting pass session 2 . I keep avoiding everything out doors I'm house bound 6 days a week I don't have any interest in the outside world because of my panic attacks and negative thoughts, I've had the program for 6 years now . I'm easily distracted and completely lazy to the point where I don't care about anything. I lost faith in thinking my negative thoughts and panic attacks can be put away forever. My friends and family seem to accept me as I am but deep down inside I'm dying inside slowly and its driving me mad . I quit smoking 4 months ago to help better my chances at handling my symptoms I even got a juicer and started juicing to help with losing weight ( after watching fat sick and nearly dead) but I'm so lazy and I procrastinate so much . Like i buy things and never use them I feel things ain't perfect enough to use or try and if I do try and miss a day I drop the whole thing for months . I think I might have add / anxiety. I was working 3 months ago for 2 and a half years and I'm currently collecting unemployment . I need some support on comprehending lesson 2 more better because when my panic attacks take flight I don't see things clearly and I lost all modivation .
But I make sure everyday that I listen to my relaxation tape twice a day .
Please i need a buddy to help me see thing threw. I've had anxiety since I was 6 and its been apart of me off and on into 22 now its full blown and I'm 31 now and unsatisfied with my outside world everything's a rush when I'm out doors . I don't go out period !!! And if I do its to get something I don't trust doctors and I feel like I can do it all by myself but I'm wrong and I'm growing desperate !!

Hey man, I've had some similar experiences with my anxiety. I've also picked up some good tricks and crucial's going through all this, time and time again. I realized that hope is a key factor in recovering. Now, the thing is that hope has a funny way of fading and leaving you clueless sometimes. See, I have found hope in many of things but they always seemed to fade and I eventually lost enthusiasm faster and faster each time a new hope would appear. It was not until I read the book "what to say when your talk to yourself" did I learn to put trust in hope again. So please read the book and do it, even if you don't believe it. The book seriously gave me a solid belief in myself. No lies, read the book and you'll understand.
As for panic attacks and serious anxiety attacks I find that Lucinda's method with dealing with them is extremely helpful but doesn't completely cure it. You have to build the confidence to literally believe that a panic attack may happen and you can handle it. It's something within you that you must learn. Simple.
Follow Lucinda's instructions but follow these crucial points. Accept it: this is what everyone says and it's because it's true. Stop running and face up to it. Befriend it actually because it's here for you, it's your body's response to something you perceive as a threat. So get to know it, personally because it's been your's for how long now? Give it permission: and by this I really mean give it permission, but like you are in control and letting it happen by direct choice. Don't joke around with your feelings, they are here to protect you and you alone so you need to allow your body to react fully to the so called "threat". If you want to truly feel secure, demand more of these bodily sensations when you think you can't handle it any longer. Seriously the past statement holds a lot in self recovery from panic attacks. Keep your inner dialogue positive and practice your breathing.
I hate that I can't jump into your body and show you how to do it but seriously just learn to work your anxiety. Follow the program and demand that you know you want to fix this! The best of luck to you and I hope I have shown some light on some truth!
Hit me up anytime!