Posted: Thu Jun 04, 2009 11:05 am
I don't know what to do. My ongoing anxious thought is that I am sick. I always think while I am at work that I am genuinely sick.
A few weeks ago I actually WAS sick and threw up. I ate something bad or had a stomach bug. I went to the bathroom and did it and that was all.
And yet I am still terrified. If I am sick, I am sick but I'm probably not!
I've never vomited from my anxiety... Why would I think I would now? Especially when I have felt worse?
I think my problem is that I am -not- looking at this uncomfortable feeling in my stomach as being anxiety when I should because it IS. No matter what I look at it like I must really be sick.
If I could just BELIEVE this is fully a symptom of my anxiety (it's my symptom for sure!) then I would maybe relax! But I can't believe it! I really always believe I am sick.
I don't know how to attack this... I am sure I'm hungry... And so maybe mixed with my anxiety it's making me feel worse. So I eat, breakfast at my desk at work, bland things, I can barely eat them! So I am creating a really uncomfortable stomach situation and I can't. Get. Out.
I feel this way every day at work since October, I can't get myself to understand that I am not going to be sick and have to leave, that I'm just anxious. But even times I know it's my anxiety, it doesn't help either... I'm just stuck. I can't figure this out!
A few weeks ago I actually WAS sick and threw up. I ate something bad or had a stomach bug. I went to the bathroom and did it and that was all.
And yet I am still terrified. If I am sick, I am sick but I'm probably not!
I've never vomited from my anxiety... Why would I think I would now? Especially when I have felt worse?
I think my problem is that I am -not- looking at this uncomfortable feeling in my stomach as being anxiety when I should because it IS. No matter what I look at it like I must really be sick.
If I could just BELIEVE this is fully a symptom of my anxiety (it's my symptom for sure!) then I would maybe relax! But I can't believe it! I really always believe I am sick.
I don't know how to attack this... I am sure I'm hungry... And so maybe mixed with my anxiety it's making me feel worse. So I eat, breakfast at my desk at work, bland things, I can barely eat them! So I am creating a really uncomfortable stomach situation and I can't. Get. Out.
I feel this way every day at work since October, I can't get myself to understand that I am not going to be sick and have to leave, that I'm just anxious. But even times I know it's my anxiety, it doesn't help either... I'm just stuck. I can't figure this out!