Starting Session 2-getting better?
Posted: Mon May 09, 2011 5:30 pm
Well, I am off and running on session 2. Still working on some of the items in session 1, like trying to cut back on caffeine, journaling regularly and making a healthier eating plan and exercise regimen. Glad to see they are still part of the homework for week 2, makes me think I am not quite as far behind as I feel. The funny thing is, I am not a big coffee drinker (just the occasional mocha from Starbucks as a treat), not do I drink carbonated sodas. However, I am a huge tea drinker, both hot and iced. I have bought a bunch of herbal tea blends that hopefully will help on that front when I am at home, but I am having trouble resisting the urge to order an iced tea when I go out to eat (which, unfortunately, due to my schedule, is fairly often). I suppose trying to work things out so I can eat at home more often would be healthier both diet and caffeine wise, but as a single woman who lives alone and has some unusual work hours, it often times just feels easier to grab & eat on the go, rather than prepare a meal for myself and eat alone at home. So, that will definitely be a hurdle to get over. Another hurdle wil be that, for me, food is my comfort and my drug. I don't drink alcohol, I am not a coffee/soda fiend, I don't smoke, I don't do drugs-my self-medication comes from food and shopping. And unfortunately, those are two areas you can't just quit cold turkey and survive, it's more about finding a balance, and if I were good at finding the balance in things, I probably wouldn't have the anxiety and depression that I do. ARGH! Kind of frustrating. Oh well, it's a prccess, right? And I don't need to be predicting my failure, when I haven't even really started yet. Anticapatory anxiety and catastrophic thinking much? Alright, going to think about the positives. I am starting to feel better. Actually went to work last Friday, didn't have a panic attack. The day actually seemed to go fairly well-at least much better than I am used to. Spent the weekend doing some tasks that made me feel like I accomplished something that required hard work. And working a short week this week, so that is nice. Hopefully will be able to report more progress next week.