Waiting for something to change
Posted: Mon Mar 14, 2011 11:58 pm
Hi Everyone,
Hope you are all doing well. I'm staying on session 2 for another week...I want to make sure it sinks in.
I really love listening to other people's stories on the tapes about their recovery from anxiety and
depression. I feel like I have had generalized anxiety for quite some time now...I also go to therapy and
I take medication as well. I realized for the first time how mad I am...I'm mad that I even have this condition,
that I'm 3o, still live at home with my parents---don't have my own car/ apartment/great job/family...like most of
the people I know my age have.
I feel so behind everyone else....what no one seems to realize is the struggle
I have gone through with my anxiety and headaches-depression too. I'm not lazy or a "bumb" like some people
would assume bc of my situation. Because of that I find it sooo hard to even relax--I feel like I constantly have
to be doing SOMETHING...it's so hard to just sit down and do NOTHING. I used to be very independent and now
it's a different story. I feel completely dependent on my parents..even younger family members sometimes.
I feel like I hate myself even more for not being able to get my stuff together....I feel so lost ----and I think the first
step is to accept the way things are right now..the hardest step. I'm looking forward to this program...
Hope you are all doing well. I'm staying on session 2 for another week...I want to make sure it sinks in.
I really love listening to other people's stories on the tapes about their recovery from anxiety and
depression. I feel like I have had generalized anxiety for quite some time now...I also go to therapy and
I take medication as well. I realized for the first time how mad I am...I'm mad that I even have this condition,
that I'm 3o, still live at home with my parents---don't have my own car/ apartment/great job/family...like most of
the people I know my age have.
I feel so behind everyone else....what no one seems to realize is the struggle
I have gone through with my anxiety and headaches-depression too. I'm not lazy or a "bumb" like some people
would assume bc of my situation. Because of that I find it sooo hard to even relax--I feel like I constantly have
to be doing SOMETHING...it's so hard to just sit down and do NOTHING. I used to be very independent and now
it's a different story. I feel completely dependent on my parents..even younger family members sometimes.
I feel like I hate myself even more for not being able to get my stuff together....I feel so lost ----and I think the first
step is to accept the way things are right now..the hardest step. I'm looking forward to this program...
I am going on to session 3 at the moment and I'm really