Stress Center Peer Support

Hello everyone. I am committing to restarting the program today. I finished last Spring and it has helped tremendously. I can't believe i've come so far.

My autumn has been stressful with some family and health issues. I've began to notice myself obessessing over the past and mistakes i have made. I took that as asignal that I need to restart my program.

Today while driving, I had a near accident. The light ahead of me turned yellow as I approached the light. I stopped as this light is known to turn red quickly. the car beside shot through the yellow light. The SUV behind me must not have realized that I had stopped and he swerved to avoid rear ending me into traffic, he swerved and ran the red light.

Initially, I was angry, but I don't know if it was the adrenaline rush or the near accident, but the negative anxiety producing thoughts began. I proceeded to beat myself up all the way home over it. That I had made a mistake stopping and how I could have caused a serious accident. By the time I got home I was a nervous wreak.

I called my husband frantic. He thought I was I was trying to control all the other drivers. He said I did what I thought was right at the time and I need to let it go.

I thought about it and decided he was right. I need to float through the adrenaline rush. I need to be compassionate to myself and I need to restart the program. So here goes.

Thanks for listening. take care and God Bless.

bna,
You did what was right at the time. The person behind you is supposed to be paying attention to the car in front of them, especially at a yellow light- some cars go for it and some don't. What you did was safe, the person behind you was probably just having a panic attack and spacing out

bna:
During the winter months, anxiety & depression will always get worse. (some doctors believe is because of less sun light} Anyway you did the right thing to restart the program before things get worse. Hang in there!

Yes, I forgot to say welcome back and good job in recognizing your need to restart and taking action. Good job in taking care of yourself.

Thank you all for your kind and supportive posts. I really appreciate them.

Here I am day # 2 of having restarted program. I went this am for breast MRI. I had my annual Mammogram a few weeks ago, it came back abnormal. My sister had history of DCIS, breast cancer category, a few years ago, Thank God, she is OK. Now anything abnormal on my mamms and I am sent for further testing. Last year I had a breast biopsy, which Thank God, was benign.

The stress of that last year resulted in startign this program, which has been a life transforming process for me.

My anxiety has been increasing over the last several weeks with obessessive thinking and scarying myself with negative scary thoughts so I decided this was it. It was time to pull out all my materials and recommit to helping myself before it reached to my feeling like I did last year.

I used my breathing and calming self talk to get me through the MRI this am. I felt claustrophobic in the tunnel and the small room that the machine was in. I just closed my eyes before the test began and prayed to God for strength. The worse part was not being able to move. I felt the overwhelming need to run but I told myself to breathe and Thank God i got through it.

I am proud of myself and my accomplishment for today. We all have what it takes to overcome and manage our anxiety. We can do it.

I already feel stronger since restarting this program. It does work. Just take it one day at a time. Take care and God Bless.