Posted: Mon Feb 22, 2010 4:41 pm
I am heart broken at where my mom is at right now. For two years she has been downward spiraling with depression (That is most likely Bipolar if the doctors could just agree). She was finally hospitalized this weekend due to her weight loss (-30lbs) and litterally laying in bed all day not moving. It is devastating to see her like this, she was an amazing mother and has only in the past 3 years been debilitated with this mental illness. There are signs when we look way back but we never thought it woudl come to this. My struggle for the past 10 years with anxiety seems to be rearing its ugly head any time things with her get serious. I just really want to keep my anxiety in check so I can be strong for her. I was horrified going to see her in the hospital. I am afraid for her, and I think a part of me is fearful that this may happen to me some day. I have done the program off and on for 2 years, but I struggle with fitting it in. I am the parent of an 8 year old and 4 year old with a full time job and now a full time crisis of being a daughter & sister in a family that has been devasted at my moms deterioration. The light at the end is she is finally being medicated with a bipolar medication, I just hope the "Abilify" is the answer and we can begin on the long road to recovery. We haven't even been able to see the road.