Hi, I'm new here. I just found this forum, and I thought it may be a good source of support for me. I have a history of depression and anxiety, and I am a young mom. My son is 4 months old, and he is so very precious to me and my fiance. My life is a little chaotic right now, as I graduated college a few days after my son was born, and cannot find a job in which to support him or me. It's been very difficult for me knowing that I have a bachelor's degree and can't do anything with it.
My son is great, 95% of the time, just like any baby, and I feel like I have unrealistic expectations of him sometimes. I feel like I have such a short fuse, mainly after I've been cooped up all day in the house with him by myself.
I know it's not him, it's me. I feel like I have so much going on in my life right now, more than I ever had, and sometimes, I just want to crawl in a hole and disappear.
I'm glad that I found this forum, and I hope I can get some positive feedback, and hopefully some tips on what to do to feel better. Thanks.
New mom...feel out of control
From one mom to another...be kind to yourself! You have a 4-month-old and you are looking for work. That is a huge stress on anyone. I didn't find a job until over 4 months after I graduated, and many took much longer. Just 4 months ago you graduated college and had a baby...two lifechanging joyous yet stressful events. Most mothers I know have a short fuse by the end of the day! Don't beat yourself up about it. Do you have the Attacking Anxiety program?