Posted: Sun May 31, 2009 12:14 pm
Posted May 31, 2009 07:18 AM
hello i have posted several times on here and i must say this site is truly awesome and amazing. helped me realize that i was never going to hurt myself or my kids and i started trusting myself again. i have been having scary thoughts for about a year now due to a trauma. they have only gotten better over the year. i can now go and do and enjoy myself and the only time i have one is when i think to myself Wow i haven't thought anything bad and bam there it comes so i don't realy know if it is ocd or just a bad habit. what i am wondering now is my husband and i are talking about having #3 trying for a girl but when he first brought it up i was soooooooo excited then i let those stupid fears bring me down. i started thinking what if i have scary thoughts about the baby when i bring it home. what if it all comes back full blown like it was a year ago when i couldn't stop crying because i didn't understand what was going on. just for the info i have 2 boys and didn't have post partum with either. i was fine prob just reg baby blues from what i remember but that lasted a day or two and i was fine didn't have time to be sad. i am just scared about these two concerns. if you have any info or have been through this i would love some feed back please. husband doesn't know that i am this worried about it and no we have not started trying yet just talked about it.
hello i have posted several times on here and i must say this site is truly awesome and amazing. helped me realize that i was never going to hurt myself or my kids and i started trusting myself again. i have been having scary thoughts for about a year now due to a trauma. they have only gotten better over the year. i can now go and do and enjoy myself and the only time i have one is when i think to myself Wow i haven't thought anything bad and bam there it comes so i don't realy know if it is ocd or just a bad habit. what i am wondering now is my husband and i are talking about having #3 trying for a girl but when he first brought it up i was soooooooo excited then i let those stupid fears bring me down. i started thinking what if i have scary thoughts about the baby when i bring it home. what if it all comes back full blown like it was a year ago when i couldn't stop crying because i didn't understand what was going on. just for the info i have 2 boys and didn't have post partum with either. i was fine prob just reg baby blues from what i remember but that lasted a day or two and i was fine didn't have time to be sad. i am just scared about these two concerns. if you have any info or have been through this i would love some feed back please. husband doesn't know that i am this worried about it and no we have not started trying yet just talked about it.